For the first time ever today, I felt like there’s a dangerous cache of unresolved anger within me that could surface at the most inconvenient time and make things difficult for myself. I’m usually one of those overly positive people – attempting to see the best in every situation, romanticising the littlest experiences, finding memories... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – winning the battle with self-sabotage
With a lot of gratitude to offer, I inch closer to a new year looking forward to many good things incoming. What’s worth sharing here, however, is the battle with self-sabotage that I am still overcoming, but have made considerable progress with in 2023. A therapist would tell me a number of things about why... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – bleh
I assume that one of the hardest life skills to master for anyone is to not have expectations from others, especially when you’re someone who naturally makes a lot of effort to make things happen for someone you love. The motivational speakers and spiritual gurus on Youtube make it sound rather easy and glorious to... Continue Reading →
Journal entry- One for the ambitious melancholics
I do not claim to know myself well enough but I think that I have always been a borderline workaholic. Productivity and a constant sense of accomplishment is my high in life and something that keeps me driven. However, one common misconception that people have about workaholics is that we love work so much that... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – Authenticity
I always felt life is so much easier when you're unapologetically, yet responsibly yourself. One social issue I often have is dealing with people who try too hard, albeit unsuccessfully, to constantly hide and miscommunicate parts of themselves to maintain a projected image. How do they manoeuvre through? How do they remember what version of themselves... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – Futility
Does ambition ever feel pointless? Why do we hustle like the progression of the world depends on our performance sometimes? After all, the bigger picture is that we all perish some day and the world moves on without us, no matter how important we assume our contribution to it or to its residents is after... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – priceless vulnerability
Presence of mind can sometimes be an atrocious thing. Awareness of the self, despite being one of the most celebrated ideals in spirituality, can in fact be the source of our worst miseries. Because after all, no matter how self aware or self controlled we assume we are, our thoughts are not under our control.... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – on the driving seat on darker days
Life isn’t too considerate while throwing hardballs at us and leaving us knocked out and clueless at times. It gets us questioning the whole point of existence and the significance of every little thing that we assumed made our lives what they are. No matter the number of options our conscience might present to us... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – Confidently vulnerable
Being defensive really is the biggest obstacle to having a fulfilling life. Most people claim they cannot let their guards down thanks to some insecurity inflicted by some past experience and it deprives them of a lot of fulfilling experiences on the way. Even if not as a result of past trauma, most of us... Continue Reading →
Journal entry – drawn to toxicity
I think there’s a very specific type of personality that is secretly, or even evidently sometimes, is constantly drawn to subtle toxicity. We may or may or not realize it but we always seek what evades us and in turn leaves us hurting. Because that pain is our biggest motivator and we thrive best when... Continue Reading →